heartache

For every up - there is a down.

I choose to have more up's than down's.

But sometimes, despite all - i also hit a low, that rockbottom moment.
This is the time when questions pops into mind and you start doubting yourself.

Why on earth do people have these multiple personality problem, jeez why is it so difficult just to be honest and open about what you want in life - say what you want - then I will know when, where and how to approach you.
Then on the other hand ..... you get the people who brushes you off when it suits them and they are not in the mood to talk. But the moment they have their up moment, you have to stop all you are doing and fall in with their happy mood - AND - let's not forget, if you are down, they are not there for you, does not even pick up on your mood, BUT never ever be inconsiderate to their moodswings.

BUT ...........

I pick myself up again and just want to remind you of the words of an awesome song, Ben's Brother, I am who I am:

I am who I am, and you can't change me
I've done what I can, now I'll stand my ground
you're tying my hands if you re arrange me ... it all falls down ....

why, when you dream, you see me as something i'm not?
why don't you wake up and see all the good things you've got?
A heart isn't made out of clay - not something you shape with your hands.

Is the reason why you ask me to change, so that you'll stay the same?
well I'm sorry if I keep on dissapointing you again and again

I am who I am and you can't change me
I've done what I can, now I'll stand my ground
you're tying my hands if you re arrange me
it all falls down ........


Yet again - it's fun to be me ............ live your life the way you want to - i'll just be me ....